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A Vague Timeline Of My Hospitalisation

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A major trigger warning for graphic descriptions of self-harm, aggression, drug misuse, paranoid thoughts and general disturbing themes. DAY 1 I didn’t sleep last night. I have to cancel my DBT because I feel like shit and want to rest. I didn’t manage to get any more sleep over the course of the day - I feel miserable. At least, I was feeling miserable until out of absolutely nowhere I suddenly felt fuelled by energy and a brain that wouldn't slow down. I started to hear my thoughts overlapping and felt every one was original - I had so much to talk about! My family noticed I was speaking more rapidly than normal with more to say, and I was in a really good mood. I facetime my boyfriend from 8pm - 12:30am. He hardly gets a word in. I get angry when he falls asleep because I still had more to say. My jaw hurts from speaking but I still feel like I need to keep speaking - some unknown force is pushing me on. I try to sleep that night. I take 9mg of melatonin, 1000mg valerian r...

Veganism - Miracle Diet?

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  A trigger warning for sensitive topics ahead - eating disorders, restrictive diets and calories/weight loss are discussed. Please do not read ahead if the following article may affect your mental wellbeing. In 2020 we all want to do our bit for change. The coming years have seen vegetarianism and veganism surge in popularity, with climate change having us feeling helpless and eager to make a difference. When we think of veganism, most of us think of them as people deeply ingrained with compassion for the Earth and her animals. So deeply ingrained, in fact, it seems like the only rational trade-off is this challenging diet. But what about those who do not fall into this category? What about the vegans following this fad for its “health benefits”? Vegetarianism is a greatly popular diet amongst those with eating disorders - often, in fact, being the first stepping stone to developing one. A study found that vegetarianism in particular was prevalent amongst half of the eating disord...